I was prepared for this announcement, but still hurts

I might have said it before, but being honest at this point I'd rather them disbanding (sad the "farewell" live was the anniversary live) and ending Kalafina at its highest point, rather than letting Kalafina slowly and painfully dying.
It's hard to me to say this because I love this band so much you have no idea. This still feels like a bad dream. I'd give away everything I have to see them together again. But because I love them, I prefer their dream to remain intact, rather than becoming a nightmare.
Keiko didn't only have an unique voice, but she had the strongest stage presence as well. Her being in the middle, with her precious smile, and being the "leader" when comes to talking and such... idk, even if Wa-chan and Hi-chan can manage to make new and great music, on public appearances will always be an "empty" space between them. Even with a new member, I doubt Keiko's "image" role could be fulfilled.
And probably for the other two girls becoming a duo will be hard too. Their signature harmonies will be really limited, and their voices are pretty inconsistent atm (it seems Wakana is gettting much better, tho).
Kalafina was always a trio for me and cannot even think of anything else. If Wakana and Hikaru continue together, I'll support them
and I'm hella curious to see what they will do but I'd rather have them making a new band. I mean, they will need a new composer as well, so I guess their style will be far from Kala-style as well.
Sorry for the inconsistent rant, I still don't know how to feel. Can't still fully accept this is real. A part of me still wish for Wakana and Hikaru to follow Keiko and create a new Kalafina.