Complain about all!

I haven't been feeling at all better this entire week (and to make everything worse, now I got super sick), it still hurts as bad as it did a week ago.
I miss him so so much, I feel so sick thinking about it
 
Corpse Princess said:
I am honestly so irritated right now. It has been months since I have had a job! I apply everywhere that I am able to and I get rejected multiple times. I still don't have any luck :TdT: a lot of people I know leave this town because they can't even find a job either. I know its a retirement place but I mean I can name so many places that need people yet still reject.
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I know how you feel :hug:. Been in this place for 5 years now, since my graduation from university. I live in a state in Germany where there are so many companies (e.g. Porsche, Daimler and other smaller companies, which I would prefer to work for) and they are all putting job ads online (often multiple times some months apart), but either I get no anwer at all, a very late answer (latest ever was 6 months after I send in my application) or I get rejected immediately... So frustrating :rain:
Don't really know what to do anymore. I decided to go to university to have better chances at getting a job. Probably should have saved all the tuition fees...
 
ATroupeLeaderBaby said:
I know how you feel :hug:. Been in this place for 5 years now, since my graduation from university. I live in a state in Germany where there are so many companies (e.g. Porsche, Daimler and other smaller companies, which I would prefer to work for) and they are all putting job ads online (often multiple times some months apart), but either I get no anwer at all, a very late answer (latest ever was 6 months after I send in my application) or I get rejected immediately... So frustrating :rain:
Don't really know what to do anymore. I decided to go to university to have better chances at getting a job. Probably should have saved all the tuition fees...
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I tried getting a job and university but my education was so low I couldn't I am probably gonna apply everywhere again been looking for online jobs to because why not. I know some anime sights are kinda looking maybe I go to this website called "indeed" Its just tough these days I guess :TdT: I hope you are able to get a job soon :love:
 
Thank you. I hope that you will get a job soon too.
For me at the moment there are other priorities as getting a job. I am dealing with health issues since 2014, which are getting worse and worse. I don't think that it would be good for me to get a job, when I am dealing with all this (since no one really knows what's wrong.) and what boss would hire someone like me, when I am always sick... Have an appointment with a new specialist Feb 2018 and I hope this will show results and end all this drama...
 
ATroupeLeaderBaby said:
Thank you. I hope that you will get a job soon too.
For me at the moment there are other priorities as getting a job. I am dealing with health issues since 2014, which are getting worse and worse. I don't think that it would be good for me to get a job, when I am dealing with all this (since no one really knows what's wrong.) and what boss would hire someone like me, when I am always sick... Have an appointment with a new specialist Feb 2018 and I hope this will show results and end all this drama...
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If you would like I joined up with this phone app (also on the computer) that are always looking for people you just have to be fast enough to talk to them. Basically you give them advice and its 8$ an hour its a pretty cool thing they have different subjects that you can choose from if you are pro at it (you don't exactly need to be a pro) shoot me a message if you would like the info.

also:

"sick sick go away never wanna see you another day" used to say that when I am sick, I hope you start feeling better or at least not sick.
 
It's been snowing here the last couple of days. Nothing major, just enough for people to be crazy on the road... which they usually are anyways. (I hate driving in normal weather.) Now everyone is getting sick too. Ugh. Hopefully people can get better and we can move to our new house faster. I want a kitty. My sister just got one (she's getting two actually, but not until Wed.) and I want one soooo bad, but have to wait until we're all moved in. Ugh. So please let this weather be nicer. Though we've had a pretty mild winter so far. Here's hoping it will continue.
 
I feel like scales on piano do absolutely nothing. :bloodlust: When playing a song, sure you may in some circumstances play a scale or part of one, but 95% of the time you aren't. And nothing to teach you good fingerings for songs either >~<
 
Westkana said:
I feel like scales on piano do absolutely nothing. :bloodlust: When playing a song, sure you may in some circumstances play a scale or part of one, but 95% of the time you aren't. And nothing to teach you good fingerings for songs either >~<
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Playing scales is really more of a warm up to get your fingers quickly moving again more than anything. It's not really meant to teach you fingerings or anything like that, it's just a way for you to build up endurance and dexterity in your fingers so you can do complicated technical passages later on without as much difficulty. I'd also recommend doing more besides just scales if you want to maximize your technical output; such as doing arpeggios, scales in different rhythms (like triplets), etc. Etudes also serve this purpose, and imo they're funner than scales (but also harder) because they actually, well, have a melody.
Every time I had a piano lesson, my lesson with always start with doing scales and other technique stuff (like poly-rhythms), before later moving on to Etudes once I was good enough to stop doing scales, before we'd actually start playing my pieces/repertoire, so...

Source: Over 10 years of piano lessons and playing piano competitively :P

On topic: I'm really envious of the people who have fully accepted that Jonghyun's gone and are able to listen to his music and SHINee's music again without much difficulty. The fact that only now after his death is he topping so many music charts in Korea is so fucking depressing, he deserved so much more.
Some people have been saying I'm overreacting, but I'm sorry, I practically grew up listening to SHINee's music, they were the first group I really fell in love with back in middle school, and over the past 5 (nearly 6 now) years, they consistently brought me nothing but happiness (and now they're bringing me the exact opposite).
And Jonghyun ALWAYS had my favorite voice out of any singer I've ever heard for many many years now. He also had such an unique and distinct compositional style and the songs he composed were always just so good and one of a kind and now he's gone and we'll never see him compose a song, sing on stage, make music ever again and it's still so hard to process that. Jonghyun was truly a beautiful person, he was too good for this world and it's still really not hitting me that he's gone. It's way easier to accept the part of myself that just readily embraces the fact that he's here, as he had been for many years, rather than the part of myself who's screaming at me that he's really gone, and I just don't want to accept it, despite it being nearly 2 weeks now.
I tried to listen to oldschool SHINee songs like Replay and Best Place today, and I couldn't do it without breaking down again. Best Place in particular is the song that got me through my middle school years (where I was bullied a lot :/), and it hit me then that all these songs that I've listened to for so many years happily, I'll never be able to listen to the same way again, knowing that my favorite member and my favorite voice is dead. I don't think I'll ever be listen to Kpop the same way I used to, period. I really can't imagine a future for SHINee after this. Jonghyun's voice is really what made the group, they just don't work the same as 4. They were just about to celebrate their 10th anniversary next year too, just like Kalafina.
Just fuck this, this whole situation is so miserable. To those who think I'm overreacting, just imagine how'd you react if Kajiura or one of the Kalafina members died (God forbid) and try to put yourself in my shoes rn. I hate this
 
My mom has a cold, I think I am getting one. My brother and his fiance had the flu... I hope I don't get that but today my stomach has been hurting. Like so bad I've had to lie down. Feeling a little better but still... not the way I wanted to start the year.
 
Having not much success with the new mobile phone, had to do a complete reset and re-install apps before it would be accepted for warranty service, where they did a complete reset, so second re-install of apps required, still didn't fix another issue so sent it in for warranty service again and they claimed that it worked fine and did another complete reset so I needed to reinstall apps a third time, plus fun with dealing with courier deliveries/non-deliveries.
 
In listening to all this nostalgia music: Sailor Moon, Magic Knight Rayearth (even Bleach), makes me yearn for those days when I could watch anime all day pretty much. Now it's either I have other shows, a headache, or something going on. The days just slip away from me. And there's always something that I wanted to do. *sigh* If only I could teleport and freeze time. I could teleport to the 10th anni, which I am bummed that I can't go. Even more so than the SAO concert, I think. I really want to witness this event. Hopefully it'll be recorded and released. I hope for an album like around March or May would be welcomed even, my birth month.
 
It's so weird to me that Kalafina and SHINee's 10th anniversary's are both this year. I obviously want to feel happy for Kalafina but I can't help but feel this overlying bitterness at the fact that SHINee's 10th anniversary is wrought with tragedy and sadness that no one wanted (and SHINee doesn't deserve all this heartbreak), and that SHINee as a group has been irreparably damaged in a way that will never be healed again.
I mean Jonghyun's voice was ICONIC and trying to imagine SHINee going on without him is just...it's so hard. I went back and watched older performances where Jonghyun was absent/sick and it just really didn't feel the same (they felt so utterly incomplete), and the fact that that is permanent is still too much for me, despite it being almost a month since his death.
I'm dreading when they have their Tokyo Dome concert next month, and he won't be there, as I'm afraid that that's when reality will truly start to sink in for me. I still have posters of him everywhere in my dorm, (I'm looking at a picture of him rn actually) and it still honestly just doesn't feel real. I don't think I'll be able to fully get over this for a long long time. SHINee and Jonghyun's solo music especially just had such a huge impact on my life for nearly 6 years and this is just...idk man. I'm still just so sad and heartbroken.

It's just kinda hard for me to see all this positive stuff about Kalafina's 10th anni (which I am no doubt, happy for them ) when at the same time I'm still grieving the loss of Jonghyun and trying to come to terms with the fact that we're never going to see him or hear his voice again, and the fact that he won't be around for SHINee's 10th anniversary in a few months...it's still just really hard. I want to be happy for Kala and the girls, as they've worked so hard and I wish them nothing but the best, but at the same time I just feel this guilt and this feeling of emptiness in my gut when I think about SHINee. It sucks so much.
 
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Still overly bummed I am not in Japan right now, to celebrate Kala's 10th anni with them. I really do hope it's recorded. Also with all the merch that's coming out I wish I had won the lottery! *sigh* I'm already paying someone to get stuff for me. Grr. The rings and the music players look so cool though! (Even though the rings are size 7, my fingers are too thin lol)
 
Also moved and still no internet or cable. I am going to have so many shows next week to watch. Heh Good thing I'm not doing much. We have gotten a lot done, but it sucks using the 4g and not my comp. Also using almost all the data. Ugh. They could not come out sooner than Mon and we will have been here for a week then.
 
Mahoutsukai no Yome's second opening is the laziest thing I've seen in a while. 90% of the footage is from the previous season, there was only a tiny amount of new footage. It looks more like an AMV than an official opening. IT'S REALLY ANNOYING
 
Some guy behind me in my math class gave me a really bad cold and there was nothing I could do about it. It was to the point where I could hear him sniff, then proceed to breathe all over my back. (Even the person sitting next to me looked over at him, so it was loud) Thanks a lot person in my math class, maybe use a tissue next time :bloodlust:
 
@Westkana we have alcohol gel dispensers everywhere at work and compulsory annual hand hygiene online courses.

Some people still need to be told how to minimise the risk of infecting others including having time off sick.
 
one of the quotes we had to memorize in middle school latin - qui non est hodie cras minus aptus erit - haunts me. it was my first warning of the perils of procrastination. I've known this truth since 7th grade. why have I been unable to apply Ovid's advice to my academic career??
 
This week is kind of busy, so I am glad yesterday I had nowhere to go. But today I lost a gift card to Walgreens that was a pretty high amount too... I had it in my coat pocket and I should have put it in my purse like a responsible adult. But no, then I put my keys in the same pocket. I think it fell out at the dentist. Ugh. I felt so bad... and there's so much left to do. I want my desk together, my posters hung, and the lower level cleaned so I can get my kitty. I mean, my sister's kitties are so cute but I want my own since I only go there once every two weeks... okay, done complaining. I am excited about living here, I just want things done. heh I wish I could snap my finger and have it be done. *sigh*
 
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