Wow *hugs everyone* I did not know this was happening. I feel kind of bad for complaining all the time then. I mean, I do have chronic pain because of scoliosis and the surgery to try and correct it, and bad headaches almost every day, but I'm not trying to say that to make you feel sorry for me. I know we each have our own problems, and that's what my mom says too when I have breakdowns about it. That I can't take on the weight of the world, but I wish suffering, pain, disease, anxiety, depression, killings, and horrible things would end. I do believe in God and prayers have helped me a lot during extremely painful times. So I will pray for everyone here who has a loved one afflicted with cancer. (My Uncle did not have cancer but he had a brain tumor and he passed away about 4 years ago, but I still miss him a lot since he was also my cousin's (whom I am close to) dad. And I kind of saw him go from good to worse in a matter of days.) When I try and listen to Yuki's music I close my eyes and try and think of positive things, like my niece, who makes me extremely happy. So I suggest to do that or to listen to other music that you like.